something is still holding me back from fully unleashing whatever it is that i wanna write, here.
i find it amusing that i have to vet what i say now
and yes, i still blame you for it. 
(:

i get that how you use your own space is your prerogative.
what i dont get is how one never tires of shouting for attention
its like chaos is your constant, and you cant live without it

mummy said "why, you life's too mundane now thats why you need some drama in it huh?" over something i did
which i found totally hilarious of course, given the nature of said action! ;)

gimme my own space anytime over a big wide platform on which to parade everything

i dont know if its because i've become more selfish over the years
hmm, maybe guarded is a more appropriate term.
is this something that came with age?
or was it something that was built by me so subtly that even i didnt notice it?

maybe i need CFW's attitude
or maybe i just need _______ (whateveritisthatineed.)

maybe its time to change portals?  (:

sian. see. its totally your fault leh hi.

something one of my loves posted
and i guess in some ways, act as a reminder to both poster and viewer 

if only you could burst thought bubbles as easily as ballons
my mind literally feels like this

on the up side,
at least the ballons are colourful!

curiousity :  akin to being a ball of yarn to a cat

the cat comes forward when bored and curious about this foreign new object.
and that ball,

it lies there because someone left it out of goodwill
it wont roll away beacuse it cant.
after awhile, the ball gets used to being around the cat, as a source of entertainment to it even

but cats are cats, and like everything else
it gets bored.
that ball no longer holds and brings it any more mystery nor excitment

it finds itself being lured by moths! butterflies! other cats!

but.
the cat forgot 1 thing about the ball of yarn.
its existance isnt as a plaything
its purpose is to be crafted into something beautiful and useful

why is it that lawyers either use a whole paragraph to describe something that can be said in a single sentence, or, the complete opposite,
use a single sentence when it requires more details/explanations.

see my essay question for proof:

“Advocacy is far more of a skill than a science.”